How To Summon an Aspect of Paranoia

[Zizibaluba]

ilovetofix said:

esteed said:

I'm in. Will adding personal fears help? For instance, someone with a fear of heights going somewhere high to do it? Or a claustrophobic sitting in a small, enclosed space?

Oh yes, very much so.

So, in reality, it is really necessary to perform this meditation/practice/something of the like if one knows the how to summon an aspect of paranoia? That is, to say, will it be possible that someone can call upon Father Paranoia's spirit without the practice mentioned?

Zizi

[popejaimie]

I was wondering, wouldn't it be scarier if, instead of facing and focusing on the door/window, you positioned yourself at an angle where you can't really see out of it, at least not that well or that far? If I'm standing at the window looking out, it's not scary at all, kind of peaceful and meditative and pretty (I gots a view ;D), but if I'm in bed and I can only see the sky from my window and not anything that might be coming up from below or anything, it's terrifying. A bit like (what I assume to have been) the point of the Erich Zann story, it's much scarier if you don't know what's there.

[kaliayev]

Hmm, reminds me of a more pro-active version of a Buddhist meditation I've done before....I'm in.

[quazz4life]

I will be watching this from the sidelines, unfortunately. Not sure how my PTSD would affect this if I tried.

[loque]

I doubt this would work on me. With all the drugs I took in my youth I doubt standing in a corner listening to music is going to make me paranoid. Getting really stoned and going to the supermarket would be a far more practical method for me. I won't be taking part. It seems like a silly children's game to me.

[sungod23]

Im going to have to sit on the sidelines for this also.

Ilovetofix hasn't done anything openly hostile to any members of this board but this just seems dangerous. Summoning things you have no control over always seems to be a bad idea.

[esteed]

Yeah. At best, this is seriously screwed up psychological torture. And when that's the best case scenario, you should probably not do it.

[Killian]

I may do it. I've already talked about how "Revolution 9" by The Beatles freaks me out so damn much. I do have the song on CD at home, so chances are that's the one I will use. I guess, more than anything, I want to see if I *can* do it. Plus, I'd like to help out Love with this.
Count me in.

*EDIT* -- After talking with a well-respected, intelligent member who has been in this thing from the beginning with me, I've decided to back out from the ritual. Nothing good will come of this.

[black]

Oh, come on guys ... have some fun! The majority of us are here because the videos freaked us out and we wanted more. I know that for me the first night after finding them was terrifyingly awesome, wondering if I'd discovered something evil and if the BEKs were standing outside my window. Fear and paranoia. Do you all honestly think that doing this could kill you? That it is a trick to make you more vulnerable to be eaten by the BEKs? Or that a big group of us doing this in unison could possibly summon up a demon or something?

Count me in!

[furikku]

For y'all participating, I recommend doing the closed-eyes version. The open-eyes one is practically inviting icky things in.

Icky things that may not be associated with Paranoia.

I'll be bowing out of this one; it's not too removed from my usual mindset, but I'm leery of summoning anything. And I just cleaned my house out a while ago, so I don't want new boojums infesting the place just yet.

[crittericalmender]

I'm in. I've been trying to scare myself for years, movies dont do the trick. Reading through what to do gave me the feeling this will. Hopefully my roomate will leave the room long enough to let me attempt this.

[cog05]

I'd be ready for this, but my roommate is here (dorm room) so that probably won't work out. At any rate love, I highly reccommend you restrict this only to people who are skeptical to the whole supernatural thing, a true believer could very well scare themselves to death. We're more use to you alive, at any rate.

[ilovetofix]

cog05 said:

I'd be ready for this, but my roommate is here (dorm room) so that probably won't work out. At any rate love, I highly reccommend you restrict this only to people who are skeptical to the whole supernatural thing, a true believer could very well scare themselves to death. We're more use to you alive, at any rate.

You (as well as another) have brought up a good point. A warning will be posted in the next thread. I have forgotten that there are many people not mentally capable (and this is not an issue of intelligence) of doing this.

[slyfingers]

Count me out of this exercise. I've got PTSD, not sure how I'd react, but more importantly this could bring me back to a place I've spent a long time trying to get out of, in a short time undoing almost 20 years of personal work.

I've done this exercise before- it is how I used to get to sleep at night. And yes, I have felt the sense of peace at the end (that is the moment when I would finally be able to fall asleep.) For a long time, it was the ONLY way I could get to sleep, as there were bigger demons to be faced in dreams, and I found that this method would keep them at bay (most of the time.)

It took a hard toll on me, physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, but I did what I had to to survive. That part of my life is in the past, and I will be keeping it there.

For all those who participate, beware the siren call. It kept me enthralled for 10 years before I was able to begin to work my way out, and I've spent 20 years and I'm STILL not completely free. (For me, I doubt freedom exists this side of death, it is so ingrained in me.)

However, the truly scary thing to me is, reading the description, I felt like I was 6 years old again, lying in bed calling up the boogeyman whether he was a demon, aliens, or a ghost in the closet. Calling him to bring me the peace of total exhaustion and a dreamless night, not knowing whether the nightmares were waiting or not. Yet I kept putting myself through this exercise in fear and paranoia over and over again until finally the adrenaline drop was enough for me to pass out. Hoping against hope it was dreamless repose, but often it wasn't.

[snowfox090]

black said:

Oh, come on guys ... have some fun! The majority of us are here because the videos freaked us out and we wanted more. I know that for me the first night after finding them was terrifyingly awesome, wondering if I'd discovered something evil and if the BEKs were standing outside my window. Fear and paranoia. Do you all honestly think that doing this could kill you? That it is a trick to make you more vulnerable to be eaten by the BEKs? Or that a big group of us doing this in unison could possibly summon up a demon or something?

Count me in!

Actually, I'd have to say yes to your last question. At least in my belief system, this sort of thing is dangerous, and grows exponentially moreso with more participants. Unless you're incredibly well-trained and focused (and sometimes even then) you won't have any idea -what- you're really summoning, much less hope to have any control over it.

Count me out.

[kaliayev]

Yeah, I'm with ilovetofix. Its fine if you're the sort of person like me (skeptical to say the least), but I know a few people who have Pagan/occult beliefs who would likely be worried by this and this would likely extend to some posters here. If you're having doubts of any sort, I would reconsider entirely.

That said, I'm still up for it.

[kefanii]

Reading what everyone has said, I'm definitely not going to do this. Seems you have plenty of willing volunteers, though that doesn't seem like a good thing.

[Killian]

Love, if I may ask, there are quite a few of us who are not doing this ritual out of fear, skepticism, our beliefs, our mental health, or...in fact...out of sheer paranoia.
Does this itself have any effect on Father Paranoia?
I am guessing that it may, although not to the same extent of the ritual itself. But with the paranoia that seems to be trickling through the web of the people following this thing, I am just curious.

[ilovetofix]

killian said:

Love, if I may ask, there are quite a few of us who are not doing this ritual out of fear, skepticism, our beliefs, our mental health, or...in fact...out of sheer paranoia.
Does this itself have any effect on Father Paranoia?
I am guessing that it may, although not to the same extent of the ritual itself. But with the paranoia that seems to be trickling through the web of the people following this thing, I am just curious.

Only slightly.

[Killian]

Ok...thank you!

[thosedamnapes]

I'm in on this!

[shnards]

I will be participating in this exercise.

[desertilluminati]

i will participate in this tonite. guess i'll have to hunt down that silent hill playlist that's been floating around my harddrive.
~wanders off to do so~

[Wabonan]

I am going to use the silent hill soundtrack and use this mantra:
Even a man that is pure at heart. and says his prayers at night. May become a wolf, when the wolfbane blooms, and the moon is full and bright.
That always sends chills up my spine. I guess I was afraid of werewolves when I was a kid.

[sartor]

I've played the Silent Hill games so much that Yamaoka has ceased to really freak me out. Can anyone suggest something more unnerving? I may use the ambient background noise from some of the pages of thisisnotporn.com.

Also, could anyone link me to a looping version of one of the videos? Or provide a download link?

EDIT: I found something perfect! It sounds pretty at first, but keep listening...
www.browsebriankane.com/My_Homepage_Files/Download/Melodrama%20.mp3

[peepingtom]

ilovetofix, this question is directed at you.

A lot of people have shown doubts about doing this because of certain reasons. I have 2 questions.

1) Do you think it is wise to attempt this if you have a history of difficult sleeping and frequent night-time hallucinations?

2) Will this affect anyone else in my home?

[furikku]

sartor said:

I've played the Silent Hill games so much that Yamaoka has ceased to really freak me out. Can anyone suggest something more unnerving?

Google "Conet Project." Numbers stations are generally agreed to be effing creepy.

[sartor]

furikku said:

sartor said:

I've played the Silent Hill games so much that Yamaoka has ceased to really freak me out. Can anyone suggest something more unnerving?

Google "Conet Project." Numbers stations are generally agreed to be effing creepy.

Good call. Thisisnotporn uses them.

[Killian]

You ain't kidding, furikku. I was big into the number stations a few years back, and there is just something about those recordings that creeps the hell out me.
It's also why I sometimes find myself muttering things like "papa...november...papa...november".

Link: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Numbers_station

[ilovetofix]

killian said:

You ain't kidding, furikku. I was big into the number stations a few years back, and there is just something about those recordings that creeps the hell out me.
It's also why I sometimes find myself muttering things like "papa...november...papa...november".

Link: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Numbers_station

What a coincidence, the next story is involved with number stations.

I should probably post it now so you don't all grow bored.