Post by senorbambos on Feb 27, 2020 2:08:59 GMT -5
"I'm not the problem here."
**0
"Suffering makes a person beautiful. You are beautiful because you are true when you suffer. But physical pain has its limitations. Shock sets in after long enough. On the other hand, find the right person and the right situation, and you can create an emotional agony that is almost like a fractal ... every inch a separate but equally potent misery, all interlinked, all working together to create something that is sprawling and all-consuming and unending. True beauty."
*7*
"I am a witness. Not to your crimes, which you have confessed readily and therefore need no real witness, but to your suffering. Your family's suffering.
"You were ashamed. You couldn't just dropout, leech off of them, sleep in your childhood bed, and then look them in the face. What would happen in four years when you had no degree? No career prospects? How long could the lie continue? How long would the excuse of 'finding a job is hard in this economy' really last? No graduation. No diploma. Nothing but four more years of shelter and money and patience and hope wasted on you.
"I imagine the anxiety was gut wrenching. Your head and heart in a vise. It must have seemed like such a graceful way out. The only way to save face.
"But you want to know something, kid?
"They already knew.
"Don't get me wrong. I can't say that with complete certainty, I'm not omniscient, but... you were their son. You lived with them. Do you honestly believe that the daily beats and patterns of your life didn't change when you dropped out? That an accumulation of suspicious behavior and the obvious guilt and shame on your face wasn't telling? That they never had an acquaintance say, 'hey, I saw [REDACTED] out today' while you were supposed to be in class? They knew. They had to have known.
"They were guilty of maybe one thing, and that was this: maybe they loved you too much. They wanted to give you time to work up the courage to tell them, to find your footing in life, to spare you the humiliation direct confrontation would cause.
"They were the two people most likely to love you no matter what you did.
"And you killed them.
"I wish I could see you now. I wish I could tell you how beautiful you are."
2**
> Jet don't like guys like us.
>> She'd like me!
>> And you could have fooled me considering the crowd she sleeps with. Her and that girl Rigby picked up in Casper.
> Hahaha, don't let [him] hear you say that. She's with the Highwayman now.
>> I know.
>> And you say she doesn't like our type?
> There are things she doesn't know
> Besides, Jet has her own thing going on.
**6
"Quentin did this. Have him take care of her mess."
**0
"Suffering makes a person beautiful. You are beautiful because you are true when you suffer. But physical pain has its limitations. Shock sets in after long enough. On the other hand, find the right person and the right situation, and you can create an emotional agony that is almost like a fractal ... every inch a separate but equally potent misery, all interlinked, all working together to create something that is sprawling and all-consuming and unending. True beauty."
*7*
"I am a witness. Not to your crimes, which you have confessed readily and therefore need no real witness, but to your suffering. Your family's suffering.
"You were ashamed. You couldn't just dropout, leech off of them, sleep in your childhood bed, and then look them in the face. What would happen in four years when you had no degree? No career prospects? How long could the lie continue? How long would the excuse of 'finding a job is hard in this economy' really last? No graduation. No diploma. Nothing but four more years of shelter and money and patience and hope wasted on you.
"I imagine the anxiety was gut wrenching. Your head and heart in a vise. It must have seemed like such a graceful way out. The only way to save face.
"But you want to know something, kid?
"They already knew.
"Don't get me wrong. I can't say that with complete certainty, I'm not omniscient, but... you were their son. You lived with them. Do you honestly believe that the daily beats and patterns of your life didn't change when you dropped out? That an accumulation of suspicious behavior and the obvious guilt and shame on your face wasn't telling? That they never had an acquaintance say, 'hey, I saw [REDACTED] out today' while you were supposed to be in class? They knew. They had to have known.
"They were guilty of maybe one thing, and that was this: maybe they loved you too much. They wanted to give you time to work up the courage to tell them, to find your footing in life, to spare you the humiliation direct confrontation would cause.
"They were the two people most likely to love you no matter what you did.
"And you killed them.
"I wish I could see you now. I wish I could tell you how beautiful you are."
2**
> Jet don't like guys like us.
>> She'd like me!
>> And you could have fooled me considering the crowd she sleeps with. Her and that girl Rigby picked up in Casper.
> Hahaha, don't let [him] hear you say that. She's with the Highwayman now.
>> I know.
>> And you say she doesn't like our type?
> There are things she doesn't know
> Besides, Jet has her own thing going on.
**6
"Quentin did this. Have him take care of her mess."
