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Post by ilovetofix on Feb 28, 2007 11:21:56 GMT -5
The Summoning will take place in perhaps a little more than twelve hours.
WARNING: READ THIS VERY, VERY CAREFULLY
I will issue a warning that may convince some of you not to do this. A poster here reminded me of psychological research I knew of a long time ago. I would not say I forgot it, but I did forget about the worth of the people it can affect. Even though this poster seemed ro think me some sort of fraud and that this was some sort of game, he raised a valid point.
Do not take place in this summoning if you have a history of severe mental illnesses that deal with anxiety or paranoia. Do not take place in this summoning if your mind is not prepared to handle any bizarre coincidences that could possibly arise while doing this. Do not take place in the summoning if you are very, very nervous before even starting. You must have a well-disciplined mind. You must realize that, if you begin to actually see things, it will be time to quit. Father Paranoia will not take a visual form. If you have practiced meditation with some level of success and you do not fall under any of the negative descriptions, you are best suited for this. If you are a mentally stable person prepared for many of the things your mind might shove at you during this, you are also suited for this well. I advise anyone else to turn away. I do not want to lose any of you, either physically or mentally. I would be in perhaps more trouble than my predecessor, who allowed a child to feed.
This thread will be updated about a half an hour before the summoning with tips.
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Post by ilovetofix on Feb 28, 2007 11:38:40 GMT -5
I should also add that even if you do not believe in the paranormal, the otherworldly, that there are many risks involved. This is a ritual that involves you confronting yourself mentally. You will more than likely confront both your fears and the darkest parts of your imagination in isolation. Old memories may also come into play.
This is serious, regardless of whether you think this is a game or not.
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Post by ilovetofix on Feb 28, 2007 22:46:37 GMT -5
In about fourteen minutes, the Summoning should be started. Post here if you are going to do it. If not, do not post here.
Read my posts in this thread and the last, and follow the instructions.
For most people, the feeling of relief kicks in at about ten to fifteen minutes. Do not attempt this for more than thirty minutes. It is very rare for anyone to experience the relief after that long.
Auditory "hallucinations" are acceptable, but if you begin to actually see things, and I cannot stress this enough, quit. Just quit. Quit if you feel faint. This should not be that difficult. If you experience anything... bad, it is not my responsibility. Know this. You do not have to take part in this. I repeat, you do not have to take part in this.
Good luck.
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Post by thosedamnapes on Feb 28, 2007 22:48:14 GMT -5
I'm in.
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Post by ravingmad on Feb 28, 2007 22:48:47 GMT -5
I am prepared.
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Post by ataru on Feb 28, 2007 22:51:33 GMT -5
I'll be taking part, I'm getting everything ready as we speak. Keioseth from the chat (but no forum approval yet) will also be participating.
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Post by sartor on Feb 28, 2007 22:52:02 GMT -5
I'm in.
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Post by suburbanbarbarian on Feb 28, 2007 22:52:19 GMT -5
I'm going for it.
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Post by picasso on Feb 28, 2007 22:54:44 GMT -5
I will do it.
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Post by Wabonan on Feb 28, 2007 22:59:00 GMT -5
im in ..... waiting for 11pm
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Post by cyberus on Feb 28, 2007 22:59:08 GMT -5
I am participating.
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Post by shnards on Feb 28, 2007 22:59:47 GMT -5
I am participating as well.
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Post by ilovetofix on Feb 28, 2007 23:00:04 GMT -5
Begin now.
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Post by jimko on Feb 28, 2007 23:01:14 GMT -5
About to gun it, here we go
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Post by picasso on Feb 28, 2007 23:13:46 GMT -5
I'm back, and alive. Ought we to post our experiences here?
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Post by ilovetofix on Feb 28, 2007 23:15:34 GMT -5
I'm back, and alive. Ought we to post our experiences here? Go ahead. |
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Post by ravingmad on Feb 28, 2007 23:18:50 GMT -5
My part is complete. I sat in the dark, listening to the soundtrack I prepared. I conjured up the most fear-inducing things I could, beginning with one recurring nightmare I have had and merging into some other scary scenarios. I can go into more detail if you like, but I am sure what scares me is relatively personal. Some of the visages in the videos were involved in my mental imaging.
At the end of my session, I felt the fear drain out of me. I don't know for sure if it was what you needed, it wasn't so much a giant sense of relief as it was a quickly growing sense of peace. It could have been my normal meditation sense kicking in and overriding my fear, or maybe even just that I cannot keep myself hyped up in a fear state for too long. But at any rate, the fear went away and left me clearheaded, and I figured that was as close as I could get without basically starting the process over. Hope that's good enough.
I feel tired now, and my mouth tastes coppery.
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Post by ilovetofix on Feb 28, 2007 23:21:04 GMT -5
My part is complete. I sat in the dark, listening to the soundtrack I prepared. I conjured up the most fear-inducing things I could, beginning with one recurring nightmare I have had and merging into some other scary scenarios. I can go into more detail if you like, but I am sure what scares me is relatively personal. Some of the visages in the videos were involved in my mental imaging. At the end of my session, I felt the fear drain out of me. I don't know for sure if it was what you needed, it wasn't so much a giant sense of relief as it was a quickly growing sense of peace. It could have been my normal meditation sense kicking in and overriding my fear, or maybe even just that I cannot keep myself hyped up in a fear state for too long. But at any rate, the fear went away and left me clearheaded, and I figured that was as close as I could get without basically starting the process over. Hope that's good enough. I feel tired now, and my mouth tastes coppery. It could've been the medication, I will not lie. Still, the tiredness is a good sign. It is very physically tiring activity, whether you realize it or not. |
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Post by ravingmad on Feb 28, 2007 23:22:39 GMT -5
It could've been the medication, I will not lie. Still, the tiredness is a good sign. It is very physically tiring activity, whether you realize it or not. I assume you mean "meditation" not "medication."  I'm not on anything stronger than a multivitamin at the moment! |
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Post by ilovetofix on Feb 28, 2007 23:23:22 GMT -5
I misread you, I am afraid.
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Post by ravingmad on Feb 28, 2007 23:26:46 GMT -5
Ah, ok. Yes, I just meant that I normally do meditative sessions for peace, and so an ingrained tendency for my mind to head in that direction when looking "within" might have overridden the fear. But I don't know. Maybe exactly what you wanted to happen did, and I am overanalyzing it. At any rate, I'll be quiet now and let the others relate their experiences.
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Post by popejaimie on Feb 28, 2007 23:28:03 GMT -5
Ah, damn, it looks like I missed the party. I read 11:00 somewhere, and forgot that there are different timezones.
Well, it's probably for the best, I've already been feeling a little off lately, I'm not sure if I would have been strong enough (mentally) to handle it.
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Post by ataru on Feb 28, 2007 23:28:12 GMT -5
Well, I'm back... It's kind of a hard experience to describe. I've never been too good with putting my thoughts and feelings to paper, so to speak. I was playing revolution 9, which to me, is a very creepy song. After I began meditating, I could feel the fear start to well up, almost like a mild panic attack. By the end, the fear began to ebb but, I'm not sure if I achieved the goal we were aiming for. I felt relief in the sense that I wasn't as afraid as I was before, but if it was supposed to be some sort of euphoric feeling, then no, I didn't get that. I think I need a shower now, I'm pretty sweatty.
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Post by ilovetofix on Feb 28, 2007 23:29:11 GMT -5
Well, I'm back... It's kind of a hard experience to describe. I've never been too good with putting my thoughts and feelings to paper, so to speak. I was playing revolution 9, which to me, is a very creepy song. After I began meditating, I could feel the fear start to well up, almost like a mild panic attack. By the end, the fear began to ebb but, I'm not sure if I achieved the goal we were aiming for. I felt relief in the sense that I wasn't as afraid as I was before, but if it was supposed to be some sort of euphoric feeling, then no, I didn't get that. I think I need a shower now, I'm pretty sweatty. This shall work. The requirements of three aspects has almost been fulfilled. Will anyone who's finished please post their experience? |
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Post by thosedamnapes on Feb 28, 2007 23:29:14 GMT -5
I focused on every thing that has scared me since I was a kid. I remembered nightmares, the car wreak I had, scary movies, ect. I didn't feel unnerved or paranoid really. I really did try this but I couldn't really scare myself.
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Post by ilovetofix on Feb 28, 2007 23:31:20 GMT -5
Does everyone that did this need to report? I would prefer reports. |
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Post by sartor on Feb 28, 2007 23:32:21 GMT -5
I sat nude and eyes-closed in a dark corner of my room for twenty minutes with a full-sized grinning face from Video 5 staring at my back, and Silent Hill ambience and sounds of gasping and fingernails on glass playing quietly in the background. I thought I felt someone touch my shoulder, and then my back, and I heard voices in the next room. I imagined the floor and walls giving way, opening up to a complete void. I imagined a loss of gravity and balance, I imagined drowning, suffocating, falling and standing on a steep ledge at the same time. I imagined myself being impaled, strangled, stabbed and dismembered by emaciated ghouls and rag men. I invited every form of death I could conjure to take me, and I surrendered completely to my imagination.
I couldn't really scare myself. I only felt a nervous sensation that I was being watched from behind. Eventually this sensation faded, and every image I could conjure up lost its ability to set me on edge. I experienced a heightened sense of awareness, which gradually turned to one of elation. I let out a deep, relaxing breath and felt a burden lifted from my shoulders. Thank you, Love, you have helped me confront my fear of having my back exposed in a dark room.
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Post by picasso on Feb 28, 2007 23:32:42 GMT -5
I chose to do this in a shed in my back yard. Let's just say the setting was very appropriate and leave it at that. Unfortunately, my music player ran out of juice and I didn't have time to charge it up, so I had to do it with just my own breathing. I don't think it was a great loss. I attempted to combine the best of both techniques: I faced a corner, but in the corner of my eye I could see through a dark doorway (not the only entrance to the room; also, it would have been easy for something to be in the room when I came in).
I was going for maximum fear, because I'm afraid I'm a little dulled to it. Even so, I had a hard time working up the necessary imagery. Most monsters are faintly ridiculous to me. Fortunately, the dog next door chose that time to start barking at something, and then a wind shifted the door a bit. I pounced on that rush and concentrated on believing something could have shifted the door coming in. I guess it was frightening enough, because as I thought about it I slowly realized that even if it was something horrible behind me, I could take it (not as in fight it, but as in cope). I don't think my experience will be nearly the most intense here; in fact, I'm afraid I doubt I contributed much to Paranoia, but I did get the general idea I think.
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Post by Wabonan on Feb 28, 2007 23:40:05 GMT -5
It was a bust for me ... the silent hill music made me fall asleep..I used the silent hill 3 sound track that came with the game.... Sorry I tried the imagery but I wasn't scared...Im glad I set an alarm clock for 1130.... by the way I don't know if this means anything but I never have bad dreams and haven't had a scarrry dream in about 10 or 15 years... I always have weird dreams but i'm never afraid
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Post by dazeytweeter on Feb 28, 2007 23:40:40 GMT -5
Ah, damn, it looks like I missed the party. I read 11:00 somewhere, and forgot that there are different timezones. Well, it's probably for the best, I've already been feeling a little off lately, I'm not sure if I would have been strong enough (mentally) to handle it. I tried it (eyes closed and in a corner) but I started to have a panic attack or something after about 5 minutes. I had to quit cause I was getting too many rapid images. I couldn't tell you what all I saw. |
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