The Summoning

[suburbanbarbarian]

I'm back, and it worked. I felt the great relief, and took my guitar strap(blindfold) off. I kind of feel a little stronger.

[cog05]

Posting for Keioseth

"That was interesting to say the least. Though my playlist was long I only got to hear Faaio De Oiad, Melodrama, Revolution 9 forward and some reversed. While sitting and concentrating on the fear and all those nightmares, any thing that scares me or scared me, I could feel myself tense up and my pulse begin to race. As I came closer and closer to the point where I wanted to give up (or...
...perhaps give in?) something happened. It felt as if the world melted away around me, every thought, every worry, everything. Then it was as if I was in the ocean, just floating there, lifeless and totally relaxed.
I felt really odd afterward, almost sick to my stomach and very lightheaded, but I appear in one piece.

[casper29]

Cyberus, Jimko and shnards are MIA.

[cog05]

Daddy's home?

[rage27]

Sorry I couldn't be here for it, I wish I could have. I had other places I had to be, unfortunately.

[suburbanbarbarian]

I'm really thinking about what will happen next.

[logan]

ilovetofix, you wouldn't happen to know or have any theories on the status of the 3 people that are "MIA" after this? I'm hoping that they either fell asleep or forgot to post their results...

[Wabonan]

Humm I didn't really like the song it about put me back to sleep... he should have played some godsmack or something that wakes people up...lol

[cyberus]

I'm back. Sorry it took so long to return...I had some stuff to take care of.

I completed the ritual, and it worked quite well for me. I'm going to leave out the details, as it was rather personal, but I am back. No need to worry.

[crittericalmender]

Sorry I haven't posted results, I lost internet access at about 10, and since I decided to use the conet project from that streaming player, I lost my scary music. I did the best I could, but any time I got close to freaking out, my roomate would do something loud, and completly break my concentration. Bah.

[Killian]

Welcome, Hackjob!
Hmmm...trust. Do I trust Love? Actually, I do. He's never given me an overt reason NOT to trust him. I feel he has been straightforward (or as straightforward as he can be) with us, and he did watch out for our safety with the warnings about the ritual. So yeah, I trust him.
Hackjob is new, though, so I am not sure about the trust factor, but I do like the fact that he seems quite a bit more "playful" than Love. And, personally, I see nothing wrong with Love fawning over Hackjob making it to the board. When you idolize someone like that, you are overjoyed to be able to introduce them to new people, so I do understand it. If anything, it makes Love seem more human, and more likable.
Am I disappointed with anything so far?
Nope. Not by a longshot. I am enjoying the hell out of this.
And, like other posters have said, I am in this for the long run.

*Edit* -- I could not have done the ritual even if I had wanted to, since I have the worst cold in the history of colds, and I was zonked out on NyQuil at that time. And I don't even want to think about listening to spooky music and picturing scary things when I have a few shots of the Quil in me.

[kaliayev]

I also did the ritual. Sorry I did not post in here last night before doing so, I had a couple of things to take care of which left me with very little time.

I used the corner/eyes closed technique, with a looped copy of Aphex Twin's Come to Daddy EP in the background.

I had some trouble to start with, coming up with what frightens me. The average monsters don't really do it for me, fear is more psychological than that as far as I'm concerned. But I started to let my mind wander and more personally worrying imagery started to take hold. It was quite....intense to say the least. I think I managed to work myself up to a point where I could have believed almost anything was behind me, willing to do almost anything to me.

But that feeling eventually gave way to a more euphoric one, its kind of hard to describe, but feeling very alive and quite happy about the fact. I also noted some heightened awareness after I finished too.

All in all, a most fascinating experience.

[arbolita]

I've finally had a chance to read up on all I missed the past few days, and I'm sad I missed the opportunity to participate in this.

[shnards]

I'm sorry I did not post sooner, but I decided to go to bed after performing the Summoning last night, and have not had access to a computer until now.

I chose to do it in my darkened room, facing a corner, while listening to "The Conet Project" at just audible levels. I tried as hard as I could to focus on my fears, and to an extent, it worked. I felt my stomach knotting up, but just as soon as my fear built up, my logical thinking brain kicked in and it was gone. I was able to conjure up the feeling of fear several more times, but again, each time the feeling left quite quickly. I believe that my mindset was not right at the time.

[desertilluminati]

also "attempted" to participate in the summoning.
since i actually listen to the conet project here at work (makes great background noise, and people don't like to stay in my office for too long, so i can get stuff done) i picked some kronos quartet stuff that i usually save for those dark, bleak moods that so infrequently wash over me.

i went the corner route, and, closed my eyes, listening to my breathing loud in that space where the walls come together. complete blackness, the quiet sounds of the music underlaying it all.

i had a hard time envisioning things that frightened me, but, eventually, my mind settled on something that made my chest tighten and my skin get clammy.

i had to stop after about 20 minutes, without breaking through that fear to a sense of relief. perhaps if i had stayed at it, but my bed was calling me and i found myself drifting off sitting there.

at well, gave it a shot...

~gathers her music and heads off~

[jimko]

My sincerest apologies for the delay everyone. After doing this i somewhat recollected my thoughts and had to relax a little bit so i could fall asleep. I then woke up and went to school, that is why i have not posted yet.

I played for music, melodrama and project conent starting with the conent, then the melodrama. I sat on my bed with my eyes close facing a corner as stated. During this time, I could not think of being killed, but the events of the past and those around me. Very, very obscure memories that i had not thought of in years, or barely even remembered at all, all started popping into my head. Primarily acts of my mother that i consider evil, and the near death moments of my father.

It was extremely unpleasant because it seemed to be mixed with the best moments that I had when my family was still close. Also thought of were recent events that happened that were disturbing as well as a few things that have been bothering me.

This part was likely because of paranoia, but i saw at one point and it seemed to flash here and there, was the face from, i believe #2 or #3 that was the first dark smiling face, only the white parts of the face were brighter, and with sharp looking teeth. This face was inside a cloak hood with obviously, a full cloak. There was no other parts of the body to be seen in this except for a claw-esque hand seemed to be extended out towards me in my mind.

After this was over, i was relieved pretty much because, well it was over. But since then ive been slightly trembling, not from fear but that kind of trembling that is experienced when drained physicly and emotionally. Also felt since then is my stomach feels a little bit like im going to be ill.

That's it as far as i can recall.